Saturday, July 28, 2012
Today was one of those rough realization days where I had to start dealing with a huge aspect of the move. I'm going to have to be leaving my best friend, my dog. Sparcky and I have been inseparable since I first got him in third or fourth grade. He's this little weenie dog that's a complete grouch to everyone but me that I honestly adore with all my heart. He's the only one that's been there with me through everything and in so many ways I just feel like I'm abandoning him or that he'll think I'm neglecting him. I just feel like taking him away from all his friends (our other pets) and bringing him away from my family will make him so sad; I feel like I won't have enough time for him in Austria, especially since I'm going to be getting settled into the new country myself. I just don't want him to think this is an easy choice, to leave him and have to say goodbye to my baby. I know it's silly and a lot of people don't understand the bonds a person can make with an animal but he chose to stick by my side and bark at anyone who had intentions of doing my harm, he kept me warm and snuggled with me when I was cold, and everytime I cried he came and licked my hand just to remind me someone is there. I've never felt alone because I always had my best friend there to love me; and now I'm going to have to say goodbye to the little guy. I just wish I could tell him, make sure he really truly understood that I don't want to leave him, it's not something that I have control over and that this way I think in the long run he'll be happier. And I want him to know that there will never be a single day that goes by where I will stop loving him or missing him. Mostly, I just want him to know that I cherish every day I get to spend with him and that I've learned how important it is to spare those moments and make them last. If you love something or someone I just recommend making sure you show them so they completely know it, because you never know when you'll have to say goodbye.
Went to lunch with one of my best friends today and then on a trip to the mall. Picked up a couple of things.
Eye shadow Palette - E.L.F.
Cardigan - Brandy Melville
Browsed in Urban Outfitters and found a neutral eye shadow palette from Eyes Lips Face for only $5.00 so I decided to add it to my make up collection. This cardigan from Brandy Melville is a perfect layering piece; the material is warm and cozy but, I don't think the fabric is very machine washable. It was a valuable splurge item for $52.00. Brandy Melville is a new clothing store that has sparked a lot of attention from fashion gurus on youtube, blogspot, and even instagram. Everyone is checking out their indie boho style and emptying their wallets for the cool new store.
For fourteen years now I have been living in California and dreaming to go back to my neverneverland Austria; where I was born. I've made it a goal of mine to graduate and then move back to lovely Europe and find a new life there. It's mostly been all talk up until recently. I am graduating high school a year early this month and have officially booked my ticket back home to Graz, Austria for September 21, 2012. I won't be able to come back to the life I had for ten years and it's going to be a journey that will undoubtedly change everything. It's scary and new and I'm only seventeen years old. I'm leaving behind my family, my pets, and my boyfriend in hopes to find somewhere to truly belong. I will be documenting my adventure on this blog so that I'll be able to share not only with myself my journey but with anyone willing to read and follow along. A new beginning written in silly little posts and pictures. Welcome to my life.